My problem is that I am a planner. I like to have every detail of my life planned out in advance in my mind. I also believe that if something is making you unhappy, then you should fix it. Make a change for the better.
Lately, I've been trying hard to be optimistic and when I have a bad day, as I did yesterday, I try to push it aside and think about a fresh start tomorrow. Unfortunately, some of the underlying issues that caused my bad day will be waiting for me Monday morning. And there is no short term solution to fix what is not making me happy so I start planning for the future and I hate doing that because I am wishing time away. Every day I look at the girls and I know that they are only going to be this age once. I wish I could fully enjoy it.
Rich took care of the girls this morning while I went back to bed. Well, not back to bed because that's not where I spent most of my night but to bed. Five hours of deep uninterrupted sleep.
Anna is still sick. I can't tell if she's feverish and she won't let me take her temperature. We gave her Motrin this morning and did not feel warm until tonight so we gave her another dose. She's been whiny and clingy and cranky and you can tell that she is sick by looking at her eyes. Multiple times today she told me that both her tummy and her teeth hurt. She has never said that head hurts so we still do not think that it is her shunt. Rich and I both agreed that if we do not see any improvement tomorrow, she will be going to the doctor on Monday.
And this afternoon, Allie started acting a bit off. Rich said that she didn't each much for lunch either.
Anna, Allie, Em after nap.