Friday, November 6, 2009

What to post

Hmmmmm. There is a lot going on but in a way, not so much. Maybe not so much in the blog-able sense. I'm tired. Exhausted. Drained. There is too much going on.

Anna is now sick and it is freaking me out. It freaks me out when any of the girls are sick. I try to convince myself that they will be fine but in the back of my mind is that little voice reminding me that it doesn't always turn out that way.

Yesterday morning, she seemed extremely warm to the touch but flipped out at my attempts to take her temperature. We are talking about the underarm method here as our forehead temporal thermometer stopped working months ago. (Don't get me started on that either.) Last night, I forced the thermometer on her. 102!

She doesn't appear to have a fever today but her eyes are all weird. Sort of glassy. Plus, she looks exhausted. Grammy says that she ate well during the day, played here and there, rested a bit, only took a one hour nap. She spent last night sleeping downstairs with me. I'm assuming tonight will be the same.

With Anna, our main concerns are her shunt and her kidneys. She doesn't have any other signs that this is shunt related and has only said that her teeth hurt, not her head.

The girls (mainly Emily followed by Anna) are in this super clingy phase right now. On the one hand, I think about how incredible it is to have these little people love me so much but on the other hand, it is STRESSING ME OUT. For example, the girls wanted to watch a show last night. I was sitting on the couch with them so Rich went over to turn the television on. Do you know what they started screaming? "NO. Mommy do it!" I was like 'you have to be kidding me, right?' (And no, I did not get up to turn the television on to appease them.) They want Mommy to do everything and a meltdown is guaranteed if I don't. There are lots of meltdowns here as I can't do everything.

My point it all of this is that it carries over into middle of the night issues as well. This means that I am on call all the time. Rich and I can't even take turns. I know someone out there is saying, "Well, just let them cry. If they don't want Daddy, then they get no one." Well, you don't have to listen to the crying. Which will quickly turn into all three crying. And screaming. Which will cause unnecessary stress.

Off to eat a big bowl of ice cream and then sleep. Maybe I can get three or four hours in before my little munchkins need my assistance.


Hope's Mama said...

Thinking of you Sarah. None of this sounds easy. I think you're doing a wonderful job, just in case people don't tell you that enough.

BreezieGirl said...

I can only reiterate what Hope's Mama said. Thinking of you and the little munchkins... hope Anna gets well quickly and her sisters don't catch the bug!

Cassie said...

Yep, Im there....

Mandy said...

I have just one 2 year old and a 4 month old but my 2 year old is the same way. She drops something and only mama can pick it up. She needs somebody and it HAS to be mama. Yesterday she woke up early, when I'm nursing her brother, and she threw a humongous fit screaming "go way daddy - mama come out" over and over and over until I got the baby back to sleep and went out to my toddler. She was also sick last week (a horrible cough and fever) I made my husband bring her in and they tested for everything but luckily it's just a cold (I also always worry bc I know how quickly okay can turn into bad). I hope your Anna just has a little cold too.

M said...

We indulge the "mommy do it" or "daddy do it" for our three. But not if they do not ask politely. We think it gives them a little control in a world they don't really have any.

For us it seems like a small issue, although really annoying at times ... and we have not seen any negative behavior that we think is a result of indulging this one thing.

I've been up with one daughter last two nights ... she coughs so hard she vomits ... I hate cold and flu season.

I hope your kiddos are better soon and that you are able to get some sleep.

Jen said...

Yeah, you're doing a great job. I never have understood how people with multiples can let their kids cry it out. Having one up was bad enough -- I didn't want to deal with 2 or 3! Maybe their kids are in separate rooms.

"Mommy only" is a rough stage for everyone in the family.

Lynn said...

Meeting everyone's needs is SO hard. You're not alone. I am in the same quickly-sinking boat with my twin 2.5 year olds. I also have a 5 month old, and it is ALL about Mommy Do It. Unless I happen to be there for my 2.5yo girl, and they she screams, NO! DAddy do it! when he isn't around. And it's driving me INSANE. Don't feel badly for a second that you get mad about it, or frustrated. It is so hard to be physically needed by someone else ALL the time, and we simply can't be expected to be super thankful all the time. Sometimes it just stinks. I'm sorry you're dealing with all of it, too.