Work has been painful as of late and not because I know I am leaving but I still need to be there for 3 more weeks. There are two massive projects that are due in May and my role is to make sure those projects are successfully completed. It has been absolute torture for various reasons. Yesterday was so difficult, I told my right-hand man that I wanted to quit even though I have already quit. Although, I didn't get to yell out a dramatic, "I quit!" Do we all have the urge to go out that way? Maybe it's because I've had to suppress it so many times in the past, it's just sitting there below the surface.
When I need a break from the torture (work matters), I go to twitter (because I'm the only person in the world who doesn't have instagram) and I search places such as Aulani or Waikiki. I look at photos of palm trees and the ocean and I breathe and I feel relaxed. I just want to see palm trees. I just want to soak up a little bit of that aloha spirit. And then someone tells me that the tax prep program isn't calculating lines on the K-1s correctly because of blah, blah, blah, blah, blah.
I finished reading After You by Jojo Moyes and sadly, I didn't really love it. In a way, I kind of wish I hadn't read it, that the story had ended with the first book. I've read and enjoyed plenty of books that aren't page turners but you are so invested in the characters that you want to continue reading. This book was not like that for me. I found myself thinking either what now! or is this ever going to go anywhere?
After months and months of wait listing, it finally became my turn to read Go Set a Watchman. I don't really know what to say. I have mixed feelings. I tried not to read anything about the book before I read it so I didn't know it was the supposed first draft of To Kill a Mockingbird after until I read it. Knowing this helps the book make sense. It's actually interesting to read both books and really see the differences.
I loved Station Eleven not only for its doomsday setting but how the characters were all intertwined. At the end of my kindle version of the book, there was a suggested reading list of other similar books and I had already downloaded one (The Road) onto my kindle the week before. The Road is different but good. You need to have patience and just go with it. But I will say this - that book was as CREEPY as hell. I've read a lot of creepiness in my lifetime and it usually doesn't bother me but this one gave me nightmares.
I've been feeling that creative itch as of late but there is no time. Soon, my precious. Soon.
I sometimes need a reminder to find beauty in what I first see as imperfect.