Friday, May 18, 2012

Mother's Day

I wanted only one thing for Mother's Day - for the girls to get along and not fight or argue for one. freaking. day.

They did okay.

We had beautiful weather last weekend.  Beautiful.  I can feel summer's beginnings and that makes me happy.  My mom is in Michigan visiting her family and Rich had plans to visit his mom later in the week so we stayed home. It had warmed up to 86 degrees, which was perfect for eating lunch outside on the deck and then running through the sprinklers.  Well, the kids ran through the sprinklers.


Oh, look who wants to be photographed now.  I guess it's only allowed when you can make a silly face and give me the middle finger.


It completely sucks that her medicine causes overheating.


Being a mom has been the most rewarding part of my life.  But it is not without challenges.  Many challenges.  I spent most of yesterday angry because I had only been able to sleep for four and a half hours the night before.  Maybe that's not a big deal to some but for me it was.  We've been dealing with sleep issues for more than five years now.  I'm no spring chick and my body can only take so much.

I wasn't angry with anyone or anything in particular.  It was angry at being tired.  I had to get up in the morning and go to work because there are bills to pay.  There's health insurance that we need.  And retirement plans because, really, I don't plan on doing this when I'm 65 years old.

Being a mom is such a selfless act.  I gave up so much after I had the girls but that's what I wanted to do.  I never lament the loss of my pre-baby days.  Going to concerts, traveling, shopping, making decisions that affected me and me alone.  All of that had a time and a place.  (But there needs to be a happy medium.)  Last night, I was 100% completely exhausted.  I feel asleep on the train and waking up when it was time to get off was difficult.  My eyes were burning and I was in a fog.  After the girls were settled in bed, I couldn't go out for that run that I had planned or sew or blog.  I needed to gather up my clothes and food for the next work day and go to bed early.

I'm so tired right now, I can't even wrap up what I'm trying to say.  I'll leave you with pictures of Princess Allie of the Green Grass.





Jessica said...

Go get your well deserved rest mama! Your girls are beautiful, your providing for your family, you have an amazing blog, your crafty and talented! I say that your an amazing all-around woman! Go catch some Zzz's!

B. said...

There is nothing worse than sleep deprivation. My boys are only two, but the nights I sleep a full 8 hours turn me into a totally different happy mommy. Hang in there!

Hope's Mama said...

Oh sleep. Oh how I miss sleep. I just felt like I was getting a bit back, then I got pregnant with Juliet. And at 9 months, she's still nursing two times over night. And getting up at 6am. I'm so tired. But this is so much better than NOT being tired or NOT having someone to get up for. Don't we know it.
Happy belated Mother's Day, Sarah.

Sarah said...

Thank you.

Happy belated Mother's Day to you too, Sally. And yes, it is so much better than NOT having someone to get up for. That is what I wasn't able to write last night - brain too tired to come up with the words!