I love this first picture because Anna has been going through a "don't take pictures of me" phase but she asked me to take this picture of her and Allie.
Unfortunately, that may have been my last half melted birthday cake Friend-z for awhile because we discovered this week that this particular Friendly's closed its doors Monday, leaving behind only a few locations in this area of the state.
I worked again yesterday. The hours weren't as bad as last weekend and I was able to leave at 2:30 but then it took me over an hour to arrive at home because of traffic. I have to work again tomorrow even though it is a holiday. For the girls, it will be another Daddy Day.
I spent most of yesterday feeling bummed out. Not for any particular reason. The girls are reacting in a negative manner, which is to be expected, to the sudden change in my work schedule. I finally cracked from sleep deprivation and told Anna and Em this morning that enough was enough. Tonight, they need to start sleeping in their beds alone. I am exhausted and stressed out and it is causing me to lose my patience with just about everything.
One day a week at home and as a family is not enough, especially considering the laundry and other chores that can't be ignored for too long. Rich needs new running shoes and mentioned going over the outlet mall a few weeks ago. I desperately need new clothes and I need to clean out my closet to make room for new clothes. It is bitterly cold today. Cold enough that an outdoor mall with three little ones wasn't going to work.
I sometimes feel like I am waiting for something to happen but it never does. My babies are almost five years old. We say that now. "You are almost five years old." "The girls will be five years old when we...." I was looking at some photos earlier today from when they were little babies and it blew my mind. We all say it and it is true. Time really does go by so fast. I don't want to look back and regret anything. Regret time not spent doing this, that or the other thing because we had to do this, that or the other thing.