I listen to their breathing, still so much like that of a baby.
Sometimes my thoughts wander and I wonder if they would be here if Abbey hadn't been taken from us. Some have told me that they wouldn't be but really, how do they know?
Sometimes I have to turn my brain off because it is simply too much to think about.
Today is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day.
I wish that I could have spent today in good spirits but the day felt disappointing. Almost like when you expect to win something and you don't even come close. But tomorrow is a new day and hopefully I can adjust my attitude and carry on with patience and less anger towards the world.
In remembering Abbey, there is also a list of babies whose mommies I have come to know online and have thought about today. We are all connected and somewhere there is a place where all of our babies are together, waiting for us.
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