At the end of last week, the walls began to close in and I became a bit overwhelmed with all that I have on my plate. My main frustration, as always, per usual, is work. I'm trying to squeeze 125% work into 80% time and as you can probably imagine, there's a breaking point. Both the person I reported to and the manager working for me when I transitioned to an 80% schedule are looooong gone. The person I was most recently reporting to told me that people worked more efficiently when they had more work to do and therefore, I should be able to fit in more than 80% work into 80% time. So she piled it on. My retort was that working 40+ hours in 4 days and only getting paid for 80% of it sure didn't sound efficient to me. She's gone now too. Good riddance.
So, there's a lot of stuff going on at work and I can't really talk about it only to say that there's a lot of stuff going on.
Feeling overwhelmed at work makes me feel overwhelmed in general. It's not a feeling I can turn off when I walk out of the building at night. This makes everyday, normal life stuff feel like it's too much. There's laundry and birthday parties every weekend, including one for my own kids, our tax returns, along with those for some family members (and hey, my services are free so expect some mistakes) and the kids' homework. Nothing like yelling out at 7:30 Sunday night, "THE KIDS HAVE HOMEWORK!! ALLIE NEEDS TO FINISH HER MATH WORKSHEET AND SHE NEEDS TO READ THAT BOOK AND EMILY WAS SUPPOSED TO WORK ON THAT POSTER. I COMPLETELY FORGOT!"
I'm having trouble writing this out, which means I need to give up and go to bed. I may not be posting much these next few weeks but I'll be around. Don't give up on me. I did stay later at work last night and tonight in an attempt to keep from falling further behind. The kids were pissed off at that though. It always seems like a lose/lose situation.